Hello everyone..! I would like you to forgive me for not being as active as I promised. I’m still struggling. I want to keep quiet as I’ve been attacked on this site for venting before, but I’ll just go out on a limb and try just for some explanation for those who are nice enough to understand. The reason why I haven’t been posting is due to my severe depression.
I haven’t been open about it to a lot of people. Most people probably think I’m fine, but I haven’t had the motivation to draw, much less get out of bed. This is something I’ve dealt with for over 10 years now… I don’t know if there’s much to do with it.
I know people would try and tell me to get some help but the truth is, that’s what I’ve been doing but it hasn’t been helpful. The system has failed me in this state. All the so-called professionals haven’t helped me and now they’ve left entirely. They just dismissed me and threw my problems on the back burner if not cast them away entirely. I don’t know why…
Anyways let me not go on a tangent because I’m finally able to talk. I just wanted to let you know because I feel guilty for letting other people feel sad for my own worthlessness. I don’t even think anyone will see this considering no one chats in this forum anymore… At least I got a free space to write down my feelings even if that’s not even a true piece of what I really feel. Hopefully I don’t get attacked this time. Might delete this because I’m feeling the urge to just stop now and not even post any of this… But something keeps telling me to post. I don’t know why. If I suffer anything from this it’s my own fault.
Here’s everything! …